The Amaranthine Sacrarium Journal

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Metaphysical sabotage?

July 31, 2018 | Thexlogy

After you become somewhat accustomed to the New Thought teachings on the power of thoughts and affirmative prayers (also called spiritual mind treatment), sometimes there will be a time when you feel too responsible for everything that goes on in the world around you.

I have experienced this phase recently when I was particularly depressed.

I was very bothered by this thought that I might be subconsciously engaging in a pattern of metaphysical sabotage by letting my anxiety lead to destructive results on myself and others (and screwing up everyone else around me). One example of this: When I was in my first year of graduate school, I began getting burned out and started dreading my studies; shortly thereafter, Hurricane Sandy destroyed the school's main office in New Jersey forcing it to suspend operation for a year, only to be followed by my professor developing major medical problems combined with a nasty divorce.

I know this sounds like an extreme example and sounds paranoid, but I've had similar experiences in other settings over the years and not so long ago.

If every person is an expression of the divine mind, whose mind has a co-creative power with the divine, then I reasoned that at the very least I would be creating my sphere of the world and all the experiences that come with it.

Because, instead of thinking positively, I allowed my own anxiety and other mental illnesses along with my own resentment and disillusionment to rule my mind, all these bad things are happening to people who are close to me. It felt like I was committing a crime of metaphysical sabotage!

But is it so?

This is where one must exercise a good spiritual discernment and separate superstitious beliefs from sound doctrine.

Ernest Holmes (1887-1960), the founder of Religious Science (predecessor to today's Centers for Spiritual Living), in the 1920s, wrote a summary of Religious Science (one of the factions of the New Thought movement) on a piece of paper in about 20 minutes.

Among others, it reads: "I believe that the Kingdom of Heaven is within me and that I experience this Kingdom to the degree that I become conscious of it."

The operative term here is "to the degree that I become conscious of [the Kingdom of Heaven within me]."

Since neither anxiety nor resentment originates in the Kingdom-of-Heaven consciousness, it has no divine or supernatural power therein.

This is why every random thought of humans, including wishful thinking and delusional fantasies, won't materialize (thank goodness!). Imagine This is also why we have to make a conscious and intentional time and space to unify our consciousness with the divine consciousness (which is rather unhelpfully called "prayer" -- which is actually a misnomer since the word "prayer" comes from a Latin word for begging).

Within your own life, those undisciplined thoughts (which are often reactive responses) could sabotage your own thinking and behaviors. And perhaps they can negatively influence interpersonal relations around you. But your mind, outside the union with the divine mind, lacks this sort of power to do a serious damage.